Hey (:
Today , went for buzz communion . Then for lunch & walkwalk around vivo , & bused home (:
Hmm .. today , really thought alot . Pastor Andy was praying & i dint really catch the first few lines but suddenly , he prayed for me . I was kinda wondering how he knew i had struggles ? I dint even tell him . But yeah . Was kinda puzzled . Hmm .. yeah , talking about thinking alot . Today is kinda the day . I was not acting emo or stuff , just plain thinking with myself . Looking back . This whole year , was kinda wasted. I struggled . Really . & mostly , i bottled up alot of stuff . Sometimes , its nicer if i really had an listening ear that time .
Past failures are used to be huanting me . But , i think i got over it . I just have a feeling that next year will be a year of challenges , struggles . I'm not afraid of challenges , its just the failures .
Next year , i just wish that it will be a year that is fruitful & not wasted . But this year , i've learnt to like the correct people , & i've learnt who is the nice people and the people who just treat you nicely & takes you as a doll , and the people who act nice for awhile and turns into a sucker & lastly , the people who gave me empty promises , or gave my friends empty promises & people who lied to me just to know something .

Truth is , these few days , i see all the happy people . People are ending the year so happily . & i'm thinking , Why not me ? I wanna have a happy ending too . & i admit , i get jealous of all the people who are happy when i'm sad . Everyone looks so happy , and looks like , things are going well for them . But the question why keeps appearing in my head . WHY NOT ME ? O: !

BUT , these are all past . Hmm .. i've got to look in a better perspective . & i'm gonna work hard for next year . Challenges ? i'm not scared . Cause , God is with me(:
& next year , i'm gonna grow stronger in my walk with him . No more doubts .
Hmm .. This year , i've learnt that if someone cant give me happiness OR just gives me temporary happiness then forget it . CAUSE , next year , i'm gonna try to make people smile . I want to be a blessing in someones life . Not die in my own life . I've gotta move on . Next year , its gonna be a whole new year , something different . I wanna do something for god . & i think that i can be a good listening ear for people . & maybe just remind people to jiayoujiayou ! :D
I don't want to see people sad over stuff that i have gone through (: cause its not nice . & therefore , next year is the year , where i will take the step of faith .

Today , as i was walking to PL . I saw the car park thingy on the floor . Yes , it wrote "Ahead" . Yes , its true , i see this sign everyday & i bet many of you're think it is just a normal sign but God spoke to me through it . He told me that , in life , you have to always go ahead . have you ever seen a sign saying "Back track" ? . God just told me that i have to take the step of faith . Outta my comfort zone yeah ? & i don't wanna die in past failures alr . Next year , will be the year where i step up . & where i will put in effort for things ! :D YEAH ?
I'm gonna go forward ! :D

-Victoria/Cherry





TAGS REPLY:

VERA: Hey how's everything!!
-great ! :D haha , how's life for you ? (:


x'aNN: HOOOHOHOHO...MERRRYYYCHRISTMAS(:
- haha , hey ! (: merry christmas too (: btw , who are you ? :X


Heyheyhey peeps ! (:
my mood is getting better by the days , anticipating for the new year yeah ? haha ! :D
hmm .. today went to church . i reached on time ! :D WOOTS (: thought was gonna be late . I realised that service was so short today . Hmm .. wonder is it just me ? oh wells . Hahas .
Then waiting for miyuki for ULTRA long . Then we left for macs :D
Went to macs . Saw Bro Teo & his buzz . Lol . so contridicting . Ohwells , i shall not go into details :D
Than the minute i went to Macs . Got Suan-ed by Verine . After that , Adriel suan me also . & JUST TO SAY . I DONT LIKE TAN YONG LI IN A LIKE LIKE WAY !

GOD ! , save my soul . LOL . dk how many times must repeat . tsktsk ! then i wrestled with so many people . I WON YOU KNOW :D see the strongnest ! :D WOOHOO :D
I won a trophy ! :D from sticker upgraded . HAHA .
Ohwells , then played cards awhile . Barney left . Then Teo and Adriel left . Then was left with Me , Miyuki , Brenda , WeiJie , Mark & Gerald . Yupps .
Than i was stoning . Went to buy ice-cream . & waited . & Bus-ed home with Miyuki (:

Okay ! till here .
Ciao ~


-Victoria/Cherry .




TAGS REPLY :
janelle : Lol ! okay okay(:
shen : Haha . yupps ! will bring her one day ! :D
Keller : Haha . im over it (: Life's gonna start afresh this coming new year .


Hey people (:
Am back from camp . Camp was tiring but kinda fruitful . Actually , i still am depressed over stuff . And i feel like breaking down again . Who will stand by me ? Sometimes , feel like giving up hope . Its so hard to hold on without breaking down and keeping everything to myself when i don't trust people . I was always the listening ear , but who would be my listening ear ? Right now , im scared to talk to god . Scared that i will cry , scared of his response . I feel so stressed now . But in camp , God told me that if i wanted to be a diciple of christ , there is a price to pay . The price may be giving up something precious . And yes , i have chose to give up on that (: But now , just kinda feeling down . Maybe there is stuff that i dont know how to say . Sometimes , its hard to tell someone your problems cause sometimes , i really dont know how to put it to words & in the end , the person has no patience to listen . The feeling of that is really .. hurtful . Really .
Now , i find it really hard to talk to god . Was struggling . Even now , i have doubts bout myself . Sometimes , i really feel like giving up . But i know that giving up is never easy for me . Life is just so difficult these few days . Why is that so ? Sighs , i wonder who will pull me along when im lagging behind .
ARGHHHH ! fighting with yourself is very difficult . Finally rant finish . Hahas .
Sighs , at least some stuff are ranted out :D haha
Just keep pushing on yeah ? (: haha .


-Victoria / Cherry



TAGS REPLY :
kaori : HI ! :D HAHA
Sharon : hahah . thats good (:


Hey hey hey !
Today was suppose to be a happy day but was ruin by my lovely parents -.-
Gosh . In the morning , i went to work . It was the last day so yeah , kinda happy . But then the Malay man said that he heard that i am stopping work today when i told him that Thursday was my last day . He deaf ?
Oh wells , Then went to watch movie with PeiLi . We were like BROKE ttm . But PeiLi's mummy gave her $20 . SO LUCKY ):
I had to starve for Lunch . On top of that , had to worry cause my father called and scolded me . Practically , he dint believe i went to work . BUT OH WELL , Why on earth would i lie ? -.-
That is like so annoying to find out that people who have blood relations with you don't trust you .
Life's a Bitch .
But oh well much . Dint care about that . OH MAMA , im super hungry .
Gonna eat lunch now . :D
Ciao ~


-Victoria / Cherry





TAGS REPLY :
Sharon : HAHAHA ! tagged alr laa dear (:
WeiXiang : Hello ! forget me so fast uh -.- now than hello . abit too late ? HAHA . but hi (:


Hey(:
Long time no post .
SORRY . was kinda busy . but yeah . :D
My mood , hmm .. these few days not emoing alr(:
decided i wanna be happy :D
Heehee(: && things are going just normally .
Miyu came back alr :D if ya'll dint know(:
Hmm .. met her yesterday with Peili . & we started painting peili's nails :D heehee .
Was super fun but haha :D
Dad came at like 12 :D
Went home , supper , journaled & slept (:
Tmr got SP course :D im happy (:
I like SP course (:
Haha . But sad thing , Darius wont be there . haha . he has school ): AWWWW .
But he'll be back on friday :D hahah . :D
So yeapps (:
Shall post till here . Was boreddeyyy (:
Heh .

CIAO :D

-Victoria / Cherry .



TAGS REPLY :

shermaine : Im okay :D
sharon : HAHHA :D okay will :D
R.Z : okay , Hey(: btw , who are you ? :X


Hey people(:
Hmm .. suddenly i have the mood to blog . I just feel like not saying anything . i just need a shoulder to lie on . Idk why but something just worries me .
I feel like super scared lah . help me can . Sighs , but what can i do than silent myself . Feel like some tortise . Am i that wierd ? :O
Anyways , guess you would not be understanding what im saying . but ohwells(:
anyways . Miyuki is still in Japan . Sighs , whats taking her so long . i got plenty to tell her . plenty ..
But SIGH . WHERE ARE YOU ? hm .. but she'll be back this coming monday . anyone wanna fetch her ? HAHAHA . Okay . so now , im trying to hyper myself . i dont like to EMOOOO .
Okay :D && im sicksicksick . need to recover fast fast fast :D hahah
Okay . shall blog till here . WISH ME SPPPEEEEEDDYYY RECOVERY :D hahaha .

Ciao :D


Hey yoh(:
Dint post for SUPER THE LONG :O
hmm .. Shall post today(:
Today , still working . BUT ! freedom on FRIDAY !<3
YAY ! :D WHOOOOOOOOOOO ~
Hmm .. Past few days , really was thinking alot ever since ... Yeah , i know & some people know(:
Anyways , Miyu is still away , It is her i think her 4th day Away in JAPAN ! :O
Miss Die you alr ); Alot people miss you dear . & yeah . I got alot things to complain to you about . Lol . About plentyy of stuff(:
Good & bad .
Hmm .. You'll be back in like , hmm .. Err .. 12 Days yeah ? Hmm .. will be counting down . HOW'S JAPAN ? I wonder . Gosh , it isant snowing ):
Sighhs , but yeah , Take cares there yoh (:
Anyways , These few days were like dying in work . So if i suddenly start pmsing out of the sudden you shuld know why . Maybe its just stress . & other stuff have been bothering me . Hmm .. no one to tell too . As , Miss Ng is away . Haha . But oh wells , she shuld be having fun(:
Working with PEILI these few days (: Went suuuuperr crazy after lunch . Started singing and stuff . But yeah , work sucks :O
Hmm .. But god will give me strength ! :D As long as i persist :D yeahh (:
Hmm.. Some things , idk whether i shuld persist . When i was about to give up , a miricle came . Idk whether shuld i give up ornot . But for now i think i'll just leave it as it is . OR , shuld i take the first step ?



Victoria/Cherry




TAGS REPLY :
wenmin : Okay . Chillax yoh .
Shermaine : HELLO PRECIOUS (: what is good?
Janelle : Hello
小Ann: OkieDokie .
Wenmin : Okayy laa.
Qiaozhen :HAHA(: I no need act . Alr is :D HAHAHAHA :P
justin : Not emoing(:

Hey (:
Today , went for buzz communion . Then for lunch & walkwalk around vivo , & bused home (:
Hmm .. today , really thought alot . Pastor Andy was praying & i dint really catch the first few lines but suddenly , he prayed for me . I was kinda wondering how he knew i had struggles ? I dint even tell him . But yeah . Was kinda puzzled . Hmm .. yeah , talking about thinking alot . Today is kinda the day . I was not acting emo or stuff , just plain thinking with myself . Looking back . This whole year , was kinda wasted. I struggled . Really . & mostly , i bottled up alot of stuff . Sometimes , its nicer if i really had an listening ear that time .
Past failures are used to be huanting me . But , i think i got over it . I just have a feeling that next year will be a year of challenges , struggles . I'm not afraid of challenges , its just the failures .
Next year , i just wish that it will be a year that is fruitful & not wasted . But this year , i've learnt to like the correct people , & i've learnt who is the nice people and the people who just treat you nicely & takes you as a doll , and the people who act nice for awhile and turns into a sucker & lastly , the people who gave me empty promises , or gave my friends empty promises & people who lied to me just to know something .

Truth is , these few days , i see all the happy people . People are ending the year so happily . & i'm thinking , Why not me ? I wanna have a happy ending too . & i admit , i get jealous of all the people who are happy when i'm sad . Everyone looks so happy , and looks like , things are going well for them . But the question why keeps appearing in my head . WHY NOT ME ? O: !

BUT , these are all past . Hmm .. i've got to look in a better perspective . & i'm gonna work hard for next year . Challenges ? i'm not scared . Cause , God is with me(:
& next year , i'm gonna grow stronger in my walk with him . No more doubts .
Hmm .. This year , i've learnt that if someone cant give me happiness OR just gives me temporary happiness then forget it . CAUSE , next year , i'm gonna try to make people smile . I want to be a blessing in someones life . Not die in my own life . I've gotta move on . Next year , its gonna be a whole new year , something different . I wanna do something for god . & i think that i can be a good listening ear for people . & maybe just remind people to jiayoujiayou ! :D
I don't want to see people sad over stuff that i have gone through (: cause its not nice . & therefore , next year is the year , where i will take the step of faith .

Today , as i was walking to PL . I saw the car park thingy on the floor . Yes , it wrote "Ahead" . Yes , its true , i see this sign everyday & i bet many of you're think it is just a normal sign but God spoke to me through it . He told me that , in life , you have to always go ahead . have you ever seen a sign saying "Back track" ? . God just told me that i have to take the step of faith . Outta my comfort zone yeah ? & i don't wanna die in past failures alr . Next year , will be the year where i step up . & where i will put in effort for things ! :D YEAH ?
I'm gonna go forward ! :D

-Victoria/Cherry





TAGS REPLY:

VERA: Hey how's everything!!
-great ! :D haha , how's life for you ? (:


x'aNN: HOOOHOHOHO...MERRRYYYCHRISTMAS(:
- haha , hey ! (: merry christmas too (: btw , who are you ? :X


Heyheyhey peeps ! (:
my mood is getting better by the days , anticipating for the new year yeah ? haha ! :D
hmm .. today went to church . i reached on time ! :D WOOTS (: thought was gonna be late . I realised that service was so short today . Hmm .. wonder is it just me ? oh wells . Hahas .
Then waiting for miyuki for ULTRA long . Then we left for macs :D
Went to macs . Saw Bro Teo & his buzz . Lol . so contridicting . Ohwells , i shall not go into details :D
Than the minute i went to Macs . Got Suan-ed by Verine . After that , Adriel suan me also . & JUST TO SAY . I DONT LIKE TAN YONG LI IN A LIKE LIKE WAY !

GOD ! , save my soul . LOL . dk how many times must repeat . tsktsk ! then i wrestled with so many people . I WON YOU KNOW :D see the strongnest ! :D WOOHOO :D
I won a trophy ! :D from sticker upgraded . HAHA .
Ohwells , then played cards awhile . Barney left . Then Teo and Adriel left . Then was left with Me , Miyuki , Brenda , WeiJie , Mark & Gerald . Yupps .
Than i was stoning . Went to buy ice-cream . & waited . & Bus-ed home with Miyuki (:

Okay ! till here .
Ciao ~


-Victoria/Cherry .




TAGS REPLY :
janelle : Lol ! okay okay(:
shen : Haha . yupps ! will bring her one day ! :D
Keller : Haha . im over it (: Life's gonna start afresh this coming new year .


Hey people (:
Am back from camp . Camp was tiring but kinda fruitful . Actually , i still am depressed over stuff . And i feel like breaking down again . Who will stand by me ? Sometimes , feel like giving up hope . Its so hard to hold on without breaking down and keeping everything to myself when i don't trust people . I was always the listening ear , but who would be my listening ear ? Right now , im scared to talk to god . Scared that i will cry , scared of his response . I feel so stressed now . But in camp , God told me that if i wanted to be a diciple of christ , there is a price to pay . The price may be giving up something precious . And yes , i have chose to give up on that (: But now , just kinda feeling down . Maybe there is stuff that i dont know how to say . Sometimes , its hard to tell someone your problems cause sometimes , i really dont know how to put it to words & in the end , the person has no patience to listen . The feeling of that is really .. hurtful . Really .
Now , i find it really hard to talk to god . Was struggling . Even now , i have doubts bout myself . Sometimes , i really feel like giving up . But i know that giving up is never easy for me . Life is just so difficult these few days . Why is that so ? Sighs , i wonder who will pull me along when im lagging behind .
ARGHHHH ! fighting with yourself is very difficult . Finally rant finish . Hahas .
Sighs , at least some stuff are ranted out :D haha
Just keep pushing on yeah ? (: haha .


-Victoria / Cherry



TAGS REPLY :
kaori : HI ! :D HAHA
Sharon : hahah . thats good (:


Hey hey hey !
Today was suppose to be a happy day but was ruin by my lovely parents -.-
Gosh . In the morning , i went to work . It was the last day so yeah , kinda happy . But then the Malay man said that he heard that i am stopping work today when i told him that Thursday was my last day . He deaf ?
Oh wells , Then went to watch movie with PeiLi . We were like BROKE ttm . But PeiLi's mummy gave her $20 . SO LUCKY ):
I had to starve for Lunch . On top of that , had to worry cause my father called and scolded me . Practically , he dint believe i went to work . BUT OH WELL , Why on earth would i lie ? -.-
That is like so annoying to find out that people who have blood relations with you don't trust you .
Life's a Bitch .
But oh well much . Dint care about that . OH MAMA , im super hungry .
Gonna eat lunch now . :D
Ciao ~


-Victoria / Cherry





TAGS REPLY :
Sharon : HAHAHA ! tagged alr laa dear (:
WeiXiang : Hello ! forget me so fast uh -.- now than hello . abit too late ? HAHA . but hi (:


Hey(:
Long time no post .
SORRY . was kinda busy . but yeah . :D
My mood , hmm .. these few days not emoing alr(:
decided i wanna be happy :D
Heehee(: && things are going just normally .
Miyu came back alr :D if ya'll dint know(:
Hmm .. met her yesterday with Peili . & we started painting peili's nails :D heehee .
Was super fun but haha :D
Dad came at like 12 :D
Went home , supper , journaled & slept (:
Tmr got SP course :D im happy (:
I like SP course (:
Haha . But sad thing , Darius wont be there . haha . he has school ): AWWWW .
But he'll be back on friday :D hahah . :D
So yeapps (:
Shall post till here . Was boreddeyyy (:
Heh .

CIAO :D

-Victoria / Cherry .



TAGS REPLY :

shermaine : Im okay :D
sharon : HAHHA :D okay will :D
R.Z : okay , Hey(: btw , who are you ? :X


Hey people(:
Hmm .. suddenly i have the mood to blog . I just feel like not saying anything . i just need a shoulder to lie on . Idk why but something just worries me .
I feel like super scared lah . help me can . Sighs , but what can i do than silent myself . Feel like some tortise . Am i that wierd ? :O
Anyways , guess you would not be understanding what im saying . but ohwells(:
anyways . Miyuki is still in Japan . Sighs , whats taking her so long . i got plenty to tell her . plenty ..
But SIGH . WHERE ARE YOU ? hm .. but she'll be back this coming monday . anyone wanna fetch her ? HAHAHA . Okay . so now , im trying to hyper myself . i dont like to EMOOOO .
Okay :D && im sicksicksick . need to recover fast fast fast :D hahah
Okay . shall blog till here . WISH ME SPPPEEEEEDDYYY RECOVERY :D hahaha .

Ciao :D


Hey yoh(:
Dint post for SUPER THE LONG :O
hmm .. Shall post today(:
Today , still working . BUT ! freedom on FRIDAY !<3
YAY ! :D WHOOOOOOOOOOO ~
Hmm .. Past few days , really was thinking alot ever since ... Yeah , i know & some people know(:
Anyways , Miyu is still away , It is her i think her 4th day Away in JAPAN ! :O
Miss Die you alr ); Alot people miss you dear . & yeah . I got alot things to complain to you about . Lol . About plentyy of stuff(:
Good & bad .
Hmm .. You'll be back in like , hmm .. Err .. 12 Days yeah ? Hmm .. will be counting down . HOW'S JAPAN ? I wonder . Gosh , it isant snowing ):
Sighhs , but yeah , Take cares there yoh (:
Anyways , These few days were like dying in work . So if i suddenly start pmsing out of the sudden you shuld know why . Maybe its just stress . & other stuff have been bothering me . Hmm .. no one to tell too . As , Miss Ng is away . Haha . But oh wells , she shuld be having fun(:
Working with PEILI these few days (: Went suuuuperr crazy after lunch . Started singing and stuff . But yeah , work sucks :O
Hmm .. But god will give me strength ! :D As long as i persist :D yeahh (:
Hmm.. Some things , idk whether i shuld persist . When i was about to give up , a miricle came . Idk whether shuld i give up ornot . But for now i think i'll just leave it as it is . OR , shuld i take the first step ?



Victoria/Cherry




TAGS REPLY :
wenmin : Okay . Chillax yoh .
Shermaine : HELLO PRECIOUS (: what is good?
Janelle : Hello
小Ann: OkieDokie .
Wenmin : Okayy laa.
Qiaozhen :HAHA(: I no need act . Alr is :D HAHAHAHA :P
justin : Not emoing(:

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